Saturday, February 28, 2009

Not Me Monday!

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Well this week like all others I did NOT do a lot of things that some people might think are questionable. I have decided that this is not a once-in-a-while thing for me so really I must Not think that the behavior is too off the wall. You be the judge!

Things have been weighing a bit heavy on my mind this week and I feel that I should be working harder to be a servant for God. I need to reach out to others and offer help when I see them struggling. When I pulled into the grocery today I saw a man standing with a sign. "Will work for food". Seeing this man and knowing the bind that this economy has our family in I decided that I would bring him something warm out to eat. The weather was cold, windy, and about 30 degrees. I wandered the store carefully picking bargain meals for our family. I did pretty well if I do say so myself. 81.00 for a family of 6 for over a week,including a bag of diapers and a bag of wipes. I had several coupons and a gift card. In the end I owed about 32.00 and I bought a package of bows for Kendall's hair. Not bad!!! or.... i guess in this post "bad". As you can see I am NOT pretty proud of my penny pinching. So on the way out I stopped at the deli and bought a warm sandwich and drink for the man. I drove out and stopped to give it to him. He told me essentially "thanks but no thanks" Excuse me?!?! No, see he really would just rather have money. I told him I was sorry but I had no money to give him but thought he might want something warm to eat. Nope........... I did NOT drive away deciding that he really didn't want a hand he wanted a handout. I was a bit disappointed..... then I decided that maybe I was NOT offering for the right reason. I asked God to allow me to be a servant to someone in need........ As I left the parking lot of the second store there was a lady struggling in one of those wheelchair carts to get up and get her things in her car. I stopped and helped her out, it felt good. The wind was blowing hard and it was cold. She barely could get herself to her car let alone get out of and unload the basket. Her smile was so warm when I offered to help her..... I felt like it was summer.........she warmed my heart.

I did NOT feed my family dried beef gravy for under 5.00 with green beans and pudding. I have NOT started to figure the cost of each meal around here. I have two growing boys and a daughter that loves food as much as she loves me. I expect that they are going to only increase the food intake as the days turn into years. Better start to economize.

I have NOT spent a lot of time this week not only praying for a tiny girl whose blog I visited that just had a heart transplant. She was having problems with the new heart and I wanted to keep her in prayer. Problem is I can't remember where it is anymore.......... that is NOT a symptom of old age memory loss! Nope.... I would prefer to call it pregnancy brain. After all I have done that 5 times and I know each time I seem to remember less. So if this blog is familiar with you could you please help me out????

I did NOT cancel the Llama and Alpaca show for March that I have put on for 9 years. I am NOT so upset to not get together with all the friends I have made over the years. We certainly can't have a show if it doesn't pay for itself. I really will NOT be bummed bad the third weekend when we should be partying with the people.

I did not spend way to much time in the "bow department", we have gazillions of bows why would I need more? Well I found new shades of the same colors and you know what a bow girl I have. She asks every morning for her bow as she picks out her shoes.

The little kids and I did NOT spend all morning and afternoon watching I LOVE Lucy. I do NOT love the show so much that I have it as one of the ring tones on my phone. I am not secretly thrilled that the boys like it almost as much as I do even though it is in black and white.

I did NOT vent to my dear husband that he needs to buck up and help more. Not Me!! I just watched Joyce Meyer tell me to be humble and cheerful to my mate. I did NOT pray just this morning to help me to try to follow and not lead. I did NOT fail horribly............... At least I did put my cart back at Wal-Mart! Joyce likes it when you do that.

I have not spent most of the day with a scratchy throat and eyes that seem to be on fire if I close them. I do NOT know what is coming and have already been hating what my next few days will be like. Around here there is little relief for Mommy when she gets sick. Who else would keep this boat floating??? I just hope that none of the rest of the crew catches it or it will really NOT suck!!! (spraying myself with lysol..... and the keyboard......... and the phone......... and the doorknobs........ you get the idea.

This is what happens when you turn your back and leave the foam shapes unattended


Shewwwwww! I feel so much better getting that out! Hopefully you'll have some good ones of your own. No hugs this time, I wouldn't want to pass my germys on to you.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

The little things in life.........................

Well, it's that night again. In our house Thursday night means the whole family sits down and watches Survivor. While I don't encourage very much TV watching this is one that we all enjoy. Picking a person or team as your favorite and rooting them on is a pastime out here in the boonies. It is maybe a silly show but our family has made a routine of it since the show first aired. Before Logan could talk well he would know "vivor" night meant pizza in the family room and everyone was home. When the boys started learning the days of the week there was Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Survivor day, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.

So yes we are an over-the-top family when it comes to the show. It is a nice break to get to sit as a family and watch. So often these days we are not all together so I really enjoy the little things I guess. With the season just starting we have several weeks to cheer on our favorite player!!

I think the trend is continuing, Kendall boogies and dances when the music starts. Courtney came home and added ring tones if you remember to my phone one of those tones is the Survivor Theme Song.

The only bad thing about Thursday is the ending of ER. I have enjoyed it from the beginning and while I am really enjoying this season it is the end. Sad.......... for 15 years the show has been my favorite, lots of changes have happened during that time but I guess I really like the writing.


Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Monday, February 23, 2009

Square Pegs

As my kids grow and I get older I seem to question things more than I used to. When the older girls were little we automatically enrolled them in the local school. It was what you "did". You didn't think about it, you just "did" it. Did it ruin them? No, they are incredible kids. Our adventures through childhood has been a journey to remember for sure. It seemed as they got older and in high school there were times that I had definite clashes with school policy. But again they did fine and for the place we were they were where they needed to be.

Then many years later when Logan was born we looked at things differently. Curriculum is incredible and easily available. The class size at the local school was just outrageous. 1 teacher with a part time-aid to 30 kindergartners. Does that even compute to you? Not me, how many kids would fall between the cracks. We decided that we couldn't do worse than that. I had used a modified pre-school at home for him the year before that went very well. We had several recommendations from neighbors and friends from church so we jumped into the world of home school.
It is 3 years later and there has been no looking back. I LOVE spending time with the kids and watching them learn. Seeing the moment that they really "get it". Sure there are days that I think I could pull my hair out but I wouldn't trade it. The boys have such interactive education and they seem to be thriving.

Today Taylor is off to go for standardized testing. I still am not sure how I feel about the "grading" of kids. But, I am so proud of my boys and how they see the world. They are so grounded and they love God in a way that I don't remember experiencing at their age. I pray everyday that Tim and I can be the example for them to follow to keep them in a close relationship with God.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Well this week I did NOT spend most of the week preparing for my daughter to come and visit. I have NOT been missing her like crazy, she is so special and I am NOT one of those Moms that just does not want to let go.

I did NOT have said daughter fix me up with ring tones for my new phone so now I can tell who is calling without looking at the phone. Only to have so many of them that I can't remember whose is whose?!!?

I did NOT make my first ever hand-made card this week and it only cost me 22.00 in supplies from Micheal's. Yea, I think that scrap booking would be way to dangerous for us. Not only would we be broke but I would need a room built on to hold all the supplies that I would (not be able to live without) need.

I did NOT once again blow off finishing the taxes, nope not me. I am very good about being organized and timely. I would NEVER let the entire year go by without logging any of our expenses.... not ME! I would have an incredible hard time logging all that in at one time.

I did NOT allow the boys to play the Wii way too much this weekend because Courtney was home and they were having such a good time.

I did NOT make a HUGE pot of Chili so that I wouldn't have to cook for several meals. I will NOT have mutiny on my hands after the first few days of serving it but I have decided mutiny is better than cooking.

I did not spend a lot of the evening in tears because Courtney went back to school. I did NOT spend time feeling like this is close to the end of this snapshot of life. This time when we are a family of 7 and the kids are all just that kids. We are so close to toppling over the edge and as an adult I know that once this frame is over we will all be forever different and not as close.

So I guess I end the Not ME in a funk..............

I love you kids more than anything in this world.......... you are my reason to get up and go everyday. Love you so much Mom


Mixed bag

I have spent the last couple weeks throwing myself back in time. Not an easy time, not one that I would want to miss, a turning point in my life. A time when I was rudely reminded that I needed God in a BIG way, for every decision not just the tough stuff. A testament to God's love and and his faithfullness to carry us when we can't walk alone.

One of the special women from my Bible Study lost a baby to miscarriage. A baby longed for and prayed for. This exceptional woman is one of the many in the not-so-exclusive group of women who live a life of infertility. She has such a beautiful heart and love for Jesus. Her animated style has impacted so many people and children in particular. She has longed to be a Mother all her life and has struggled to make that dream come true. She has a wonderful little boy that is the light of her life. She thought like so many of us that she was being blessed with a miracle. She let herself believe that God was giving her a blessing and then in the blink of an eye at a bit over 7 weeks her tiny baby was gone. Now she is picking up the pieces and trying to make sense of what has happened while she grieves a dream.

I am grieving her loss right along with her........... do I feel pity? No, I feel her pain, her loss. The loss of a dream that was never in God's master plan. I know that she will be blessed, I just am not sure how. I wish she could fast forward through this pain....... but I know that there is purpose in this pain and she needs to experience it.

Just when I felt that life might really be in the pits I got a phone call from another exceptional woman. This woman has been in my life long enough for her to be a daughter. She has been there for us and with us for a long time. She called to tell me that she is expecting a baby, a gift from God and I was so excited. I am so excited for her. So excited that she is going on this journey. Her life is going to change in BIG way and I can't wait. I can remember back to when I found out the first time that I had gotten pregnant. How excited I was and that bit of fear in the pit of my stomach. Could I raise a human??? Hmmmmm and give birth to one... Yikes! It has been a journey that although I do very poorly in the puke department, I have done 5 times and treasure each trip. This baby is going to be a lucky little one to have such grounded and well-rooted parents.

My prayers go to this special family in the making for a wonderful healthy pregnancy, easy birth, and fabulous lifestyle change. God Bless!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Monday, February 16, 2009

Not Me Monday

***** Update******

Please take a moment and click on the link for Veiyah! she needs our prayers now, her sweet Momma does too. this little one has been through so much and is continuing to struggle. say a prayer now if you could and then go catch up on her story.

Okay.....take two! I hate it when this happens, my post was ready to go and then the whole page disappeared! So we’ll see which Not Me’s pop up this time or I should say which ones I can remember.

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Time to fess up about the week and let everyone know that we all are indeed human and God did allow some flaws to seep through.

I did NOT pick up the cell phone this week and have several minutes of conversation before realizing that I wasn’t talking to the person I thought I was. My vision is NOT that bad, I can see the name on the screen when I hold it very far away and close to a light. I think that bulbs are just not as bright as they used to be right???

I did NOT have to reel in my dear husband this week when our 5 K garage door started doing this.... well you can't see it exactly but this is the closed position for now. Not good enough for you??? Hmmmmm not him either. I actually am not as upset about the door as I am the extremly cute hat I bought for Kendall and seem to have lost. It cost me a buck, but really now..... it is an ADORABLE hat.


I did not after many times of reminding the boys to pick up their shoes decide that they would “disappear” for a time to let them be uncomfortable in old worn and small shoes. It did NOT backfire a bit when the boys were delighted to see their “favorite” shoes and then needed to wear them to the adult birthday party last night.......


I did NOT for the first time ever this week direct the boys in Valentines Day box making. They attended their first ever V-day party. Where you may ask Chuck E Cheese, another first for us. I guess we live in a very sheltered life.


I did NOT get a phone call that went a bit like this:


Hello, this is Gaby from WifeSwap.

Who from WHO???

Gaby from WifeSwap, your family has been nominated to be on our show

Your Gaby from WIFESWAP?!?! Us, on the show????? The fear started to creep in the edges a bit. I have seen the show and well.......... hmmmmm. The raw food family and the witch family come to mind. Well, apparently if you are a farm family that raises llamas, heats with wood, homeschools your multiple children, have 2 distinct age groups, and blogs away the day then you are a rare commodity. Will we do it???? well, we did immediately head to the barn in our Carharts and boots. What??? Do you say you don’t have Carharts and boots in every size for your family??? hmmmmm...... well as for the show we are awaiting direction and giving it much thought before stepping off that ledge.




I did NOT decide that I was too tired to once again clean the bathroom in what seemed like mere hours after cleaning it the first time. Living in a house with 3 people of the male gender is NOT getting to me when it comes to AIM! I was so tired that I decided that I could "wipe" the entire bathroom with these...... and look they help combat flu virus!!


I did NOT get the most beautiful spring tulips from my wonderful husband for Valentines Day! They just look so pretty I can almost feel the sun starting to come through the cold winter.


Lastly I did NOT try to use my own warped parenting on myself and not allow myself to take my computer to bed to make it high on the list again this week for the Not Me Monday, unless I got our taxes done. As you can see I didn’t get done and I DO follow through with punishments around here....... Still trying to bask in the #3 spot of long ago last week.

Hmmmm pictures to come later and it isn’t just a ploy to get you back I just can’t wait for them to download right now and be lower in the line!??!!?!? Hmmmmmm after 10:00 and no school started yet..... that is what Not Me does to me!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

a Pet Lovers must read

I got this in my e-mail and after a few days of thinking about it it is still just on my mind. That would be the mind of a pet lover Mom. The one who cringes at the thought of loosing one of the many furry or feathered creatures that live with us.

God lives in the Post Office

This is one of the kindest things I've ever experienced. I have no way to know who sent it, but there is a beautiful soul working in the dead letter office of the US postal service.

Our 14 year old dog, Abbey, died last month. The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey. She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her. I told her that I thought we could so she dictated these words:

Dear God,

Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick.

I hope you will play with her. She likes to play with balls and to swim. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her You will know that she is my dog. I really miss her.

Love, Meredith

We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return address on it. Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the letter box at the post office. A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet. I told her that I thought He had.

Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed, "To Meredith " in an unfamiliar hand. Meredith opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called "When a Pet Dies". Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope. On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey & Meredith and this note:


Dear Meredith,

Abbey arrived safely in heaven.

Having the picture was a big help. I recognized Abbey right away.

Abbey isn't sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart. Abbey loved being your dog. Since we don't need our bodies in heaven, I don't have any pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by.

Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you.

I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much.

By the way, I'm easy to find, I am wherever there is love.

Love, God

Friday, February 13, 2009

February hummmm drumm and more....

I don't know if it is just because winter is still dragging on or not but I seem to find myself in a strange funk. Over the last few days I try but it seems I am just feeling the dumps. Winter, although I really do enjoy it, drags on longer than I would prefer. I have spoken to God many times about this trying to rally support for a Thanksgiving start of winter and a Happy New Year good bye to winter. He doesn't seem to take my ideas to heart though. Once again I'm sure that my tiny myopic view doesn't understand his master plan but from where I sit anyway the winter should be OVER! I am ready to see the first pops of the crocus and daffodils in our yard. I do have to admit I felt so much better.... even had a spring in my step after buying Kendall some over the top cute spring and summer dresses! Funny how for a moment shopping makes everything better.

I also have been a bit more than mildly upset that the government seem to be again messing with us regular people. As I understand in a very short time there will be new regulation in place that will prohibit resale stores from selling products unless they have been extensively and expensively tested for lead. While I am not wanting anyone's children to get hurt in any way I think that this regulation is going WAY over board and more families are going to be hurt by an ever dropping economy. I personally like shopping in the resale shops. I like that things aren't going into the landfill, I love dressing my crew in name brand clothes for less. I feel so bad for the work at home Moms that supplement or make their family income working on the cool crafty stuff that we all love to buy. Why at a time when so may of us are struggling to make ends meet is the government making it harder??? I have yet to see any positive comment for this rule that will take effect at the end of February.

What are your comments on this.......... if you have any reason that this is sane let me know. Really, I won't bite your head off or anything. Just trying to make sense of it.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

So here I am pouring my heart out about all the mis-steps and goof-ups that I have had over the last week. Now understand I did NOT have that many. We will keep the list short ...... how about I confess by the day?!?

I did NOT start the week by shoveling the icy driveway in a pair of old spiked shoes from the girls softball days. I did NOT still BITE it bad! I did NOT secretly hope that the neighbors would zip down the drive on their tractor and see me in distress and scoop us out in a minute instead of me shoveling for 45 minutes. I did not start to stress about a dentist appointment that I will have in one week, NOT me. That would be childish and silly........

I did NOT tell the boys that I was sure tennis lessons were canceled because of the roads when I knew they weren't. I just knew that I would have to hop over to my favorite shop and buy Kendall more clothes. Clothes she has NO closet space left for. I have SO MUCH more will-power than that. So we stayed home and the boys missed their lesson this one time. I mean really...... it's not like they will be playing tennis anytime soon here in Ohio. I did not finally get a fancy (complicated) new phone to replace the one that Kendall used as a weapon last week. I DID get one that has the same charging connection (yea....) It did NOT take me over an hour to figure out how to call on the phone and then it was four days before I recognized the frogs and cricket noises as my ring........ the boys and I wondered where those animal sounds were coming from......

We were so busy and industrious... we finished school by 12:00 and we even made it to kids bowling on time! We did not have a good time with all the other kids and then go out for a snack with all of them. When we got back in the van it did NOT do "its thing" and start. It plays this game with me just every once in a while. If you give it a bit it will start..... you just have to be humiliated. We did NOT try to look like we were "waiting" in the parking lot on purpose. The humiliation joke is on the car though..... it has happened for so long and been looked at so much by the "experts" (and cost so much $$) that know when it happens the boys just whip out one of their fabulous prayers and then at some point off we go so no humiliation in our car! We just use the time to stop and reflect......... or growl, grump, and snarl.

I did NOT decide that we were going to cut out the junk food and I was going to start cooking only healthy food. 2 hours later I was NOT hiding in the laundry room eating a Hershey bar I found in the frig. Now I think the rest of them should eat healthy and I have NOT got a stash of goodies for Mommy.

Tim and I did NOT get into a knock down drag out (well not really) fight because he was being COMPLETELY ridiculous and not listening to what I needed. I was completely in the right......... well I thought so until I wanted to run over 3 cars on the way to the store while singing Amazing Grace all the way there and then all but mowing down any poor person that dare get in my way while at the store. I did NOT grab 2 candy bars on the way through the check out. hmmmm ..... should I just whisper that I am NOT a bit PMS'y right now.

I did NOT completely decide that I wouldn't even talk to Tim for the day and then realize that his parents were coming over and that plan wouldn't work well. Still thinking that PMS is hanging around because after about 1 hour of the whole family I wanted to run from the house screaming. I did NOT head out to do chores only to find that all that ice had turned to MUD. So nice and sloppy deep that your boots kept getting stuck in the mud...... after almost loosing them I finally did NOT loose my balance and then end up in the mud! I love Ohio........ I love Ohio..........I love Ohio.... I need a vacation.....

I did NOT spend most of the day working tirelessly on the Valentines Day boxes with the boys. I did NOT wish I had a creative bone in my body so that we could come up with something catchy and cute. I did NOT almost BLOW when my DH couldn't keep the baby out of the sun room while I made business calls. He couldn't seem to stop playing the Wii with the boys long enough to help me out. I completely had to leave the room when he told me that he "couldn't" keep her in the room with him, she was uncontrollable. Lastly I am NOT just about to jump out of my skin about the dentist thing.....I LOVE going to the dentist and I know that there is nothing to be afraid of. It is NOT an out of control fear. I would NOT trade giving child birth consecutively to all my children with no drugs again as a trade......... nope NOT ME!

Say a little prayer for me this afternoon as I face the giant...... or dentist as I like to call her.........

What about you????????????

Saturday, February 7, 2009

When you were little............

what did you think your life would be like? How close to the mark have you come? I remember vividly when the girls were little Tiffany would stand and say "when I get big I am going to be a Doctor and a dancer..... Oh yea and occasionally she would say and I'm only going to have one baby and I am going to be a mean Mom like you are." This always happened when she had to go and sit on the step. Courtney on the other hand held to the dream that when she grew up she was going to be a unicorn. Now Logan tells me he is going to be a scientist, and Taylor well he thinks a race car driver..... let me just say this one has me a bit concerned. Funny how the oldest of each set is more of a "real" job and the younger is more of a dreamer.

As for me as a child I was sure that I was going to be a Mom, I wanted that from the earliest memories that I have. I had dolls that were my babies for years.... I just wanted to be a Mom I wanted to bake cookies and be home. I also knew that someday I would have a cat and a dog IN the house. I was never allowed as a child and I thought that would be the best. Well, if you fast-forward I AM a Mom of 6, and I LOVE it 98% of the time. The pet thing well, it is much bigger than I ever thought. I went from the kid not allowed to have a pet to the adult that in a few short days will be able to say that I have been in the "llama" raising, showing, judging business for 20 years! We have 12 llamas here now, but at times we have had up to 48 llamas. I have delivered near 100 cria. Wow, although the chores are sometimes yucky and I have been "up to my elbows" places I never dreamed not bad for the town kid that once in a while got to have a fish.

Oh yea and I also got to have the dog in the house. We don't have a cat inside anymore but there are about 20 outside all tame and all with names. None in the house because we also have a large parrot named Max.

So tell me........... what about you?????????

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Monday, February 2, 2009

Not Me Monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

Well it's that time again............. can you believe it???? time to unload about all the things we did NOT do the week before. You know the ones....... the ones that you pray nobody who really knows you ever finds out. Thanks to MckMama and her blog for giving us all this much needed therapy at such a rock bottom price!

This week I did NOT feel a bit jealous that not one but 2 people that we knew were breaking free from the bulk of their kiddos and taking cruises. I did NOT wish as I was shoveling 10 inches of snow off our Looooong driveway that I was basking in the sun on our private deck.

I did NOT make a teeny mistake in the checkbook and double enter a deposit. Well, see it really was NOT my fault! I over heard my dear husband talking on the phone and distinctly heard him say Wow! That is great I didn't think we would get a bonus." Upon hearing this I did not excitedly call the bank the next day and record the amount given on the automated system. I also did NOT actually speak to a customer service person and have them tell me that the 3 deposits I was speaking about were in the name of my husbands employer. I did NOT then quickly and deftly write checks to the tune of 1,800.00 and feel so proud that I whittled our national debt down a bit before my husband could spend the money. Great plan but the deposit was from another time and I over drew our account in the exact amount! Argh.............. I did NOT then wriggle and wriggle and find ways to pull us back out of the red without telling my dear husband. He would NOT have been upset at all, NOPE........ he would be ever so understanding.

I did NOT catch my sweet little girl treating my cell phone like a ball bat and then start to freak out (in the mind children were hurt or affected in the making of this nervous breakdown). How in the world would I live without my cell??? And until this morning it worked fine............. now ummmmm well no calls can be made or received. The only good thing about it is so far the phone directory still works.

I did NOT once again put off the dirty detail of logging in all our information to get things ready for the tax preparer. I wouldn't do that............... I was too NOT busy dreaming about ME being on a cruise ship!

I did NOT have bad dreams the last two nights............... creepy real ones. I love to dream about dark scary things.... yea its a favorite thing of mine.

I did NOT just put the puzzle back in the box that Logan got out. 500 pieces of confusion, my attention span is not up to the lovely waterfall with the tiny flowers ALL over it. TINY pieces that don't seem to be very clear...... are there more than one place that these pieces fit???? and NO I do NOT need glasses. I have perfect vision and am not near old enough to be needing glasses. I also just LOVE to change my hair clolr slightly every 6 weeks or so .... I have NO gray hair..... not an old person here....................yikes!!

I did not post these pictures of my sweet youngest baby because she was so adorable. And that is NOT a McDonalds french fry that she is holding onto. I wouldn't give her that kind of junk to eat. No, not ME!



Last but not least I did NOT post on the BLOG about a Seriously cool magazine. Just pop back and see the post.

I can hardly wait till next week!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Serious Life

Hmmmm the title can conjure up all kinds of images in your mind can't they? Life is serious.......... life can be serious in so many ways. How many times have you worried needlessly about some issue that you think will just pull you under? I read my Bible and read.... try to convince myself that worry is a sin. It's right there in the pages of the Bible. Do not worry about what you will eat or wear. BUT we humans seem to love to worry don't we? We love to think that we can can control and steer our lives. Who do we think we are kidding anyway!?!?

So I am working hard to realize that no matter what is trying to drag me under, there is always someone else in more need than myself and I should get off my pity pot and help someone else, isn't that part of the plan? be a blessing to others. I have become one in an army that have come to love a little girl named Abby. A little girl that I will probably never meet. A little girl who is beautiful with an infectious smile. A little girl with Dad who is blessed with words. A little girl with a spidey brother named Landis, a little girl who was brought here to the United States to be loved by a forever family...... oh yea and a little girl that is bravely fighting a battle with cancer.

This post on my blog is for the Riggs family and their magazine and I hope you will all take a look at it. Real life and the people that live it. Won't you give it a try??????

No words...................

When I logged in yesterday bright and early I did my normal and checked out all my "bloggy" friends sites to get the prayers right. Once again too soon another family has had to release their sweet child from their clutching fingers to heaven where God in his mighty wisdom has called them home. Little Tuesday has been healed and is dancing with Jesus. This little girl just grabbed my heartand now it is breaking.

I know all the flowery, "religious" quips....... been there said them, had them said to me. There is still a very human part of me that just has to scream and cry out...
THIS STINKS GOD!!! I love you with more than I am, I will always follow you and I try to never cry out in anger at you for circumstance. But my heart just breaks for families that just wanted to raise their babies, watch them grow and get gray hairs from them.

I know they will be spared all kinds of human trial, like a get-out-of-jail-free card they are living the high life. But here on earth the buckets of tears just keep running over.

Hug your kiddos, tell them how much you love them and praise God for his love and mercy.