Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Just too special for earth.

Today has been an emotionally draining day for me. As you see by my hurried and not so pretty post from yesterday, my dear friend Nancy had been in the hospital with her twin yet-to-be-born daughters in peril. Even through the prayers from every corner of the earth her sweet babies were delivered and went straight on up to heaven at 22 weeks and 1 day.

The sorrow I feel for Nancy her husband and their daughter is engulfing me. Her contractions broke through all meds and the babies were delivered. I am in awe of all that Nancy did to give these little girls the best chance. She had been in bed half upside down for weeks. She would have done it for months if she could have. The love of a Mother to her babies is an incredible thing. God gave us such capacity to love and nurture, and such depth of sorrow when we loose our children. Her babies were born still so they didn't struggle, she has great peace in that. She and her husband got to hold, cuddle the girls, and have them blessed. Those were all important to her and blessings that she will cling to in the days ahead. They are grieving for babies that should be tucked away safe growing and meeting them in November.

I feel angry that these tiny lives loved and wanted so much are taken so soon. I know that they are "better off" in heaven........ but their broken families are in such pain. I know for us when we lost Mackenzie I felt like the world had just fell apart. I couldn't understand how any good could ever come from me loosing my baby. Now, although I still would love to have her here with us I can see that she has made a difference in many lives and without loosing her we would have never had Kendall. So I have to wait awhile to hold her in my arms but she will always be my daughter. Anyway, I guess the long and short of it is those sweet babies were here for only a moment.

I feel so broken for Nancy and her family, but I know that they will all be together again, they were just too special for earth.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Please pray and pass the word

I am trying to get as many people as I can to be praying for my friend Nancy. I belong to a board of infertility women. Nancy has had so many trials on the way to bringing her 2nd baby into the world. She and her husband have a beautiful little 7 year old girl. She has longed to add a sibling for Isabela. Nancy had a miscarraige a little over a year ago and then with much prayer and help she got pregnant with twin girls. Everyone was so excited and thankful for her pregnancy. At 17 weeks she started to have problems. She was initially put on bedrest and then admitted to the hospital. Over the last couple days she has had increased problems and last night at 22 weeks the water of one of the babies has broken. They have named the babies Lucy and Georgia, as you can imagine they are terrified and heartbroken. The doctors are not giving much hope but I know that God can turn this all around if he chooses. We are praying for grace and his will, praying for a bit more time and the ability to accept what God does ultimately choose. They are so close to viability, please give these babies strength.

I feel helpless for them and have been building a prayer life everywhere I can.

thank you so much............................ your sister in Christ

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Wow! Wrap your head around this one...

"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind". Romans 12:2

Wow! Boy is this one for me. I have been searching for a verse that I can work on and put to use. I kept waiting for prompting in some direction. I thought maybe it would be a verse on judging. I have a real habit of being full of advice for others and not always be able to see the log in my own eye. But this is the one that jumped off the page and called to me.

I have been trying real hard to put my faith where my mouth is lately. With the help of Joyce Meyer ( no not in person, I watch her everyday now) I have learned that being a Christian is a call to action. My Christian life seemed to be great, I had ask God into my life years ago. I went to church almost every Sunday, Listened patiently to my boys as they pray at night, I also prayed every night before bed, didn't drink, smoke, swear. Gosh I thought I must have it all together. WRONG! My walk with Christ was a surface walk, not an intimate relationship with Christ. I am called to continue to read and pray, spread the gospel, and talk to God all day long. I should be a reflection of his behavior, everyday all the time. People should be able to see God in me. I should be able to see the joy in everyday. Well, gosh how can I do that if I live "as the world lives"? Instead of blindly foolowing along with the world I need to use God's rules and life as my meter. I know better and now with this verse I will do better.

Things are starting to pop around here! Next week is a big birthday week at our house. Kendall will be 1 on the 13th, Tim will be (hmmmm older) on the 14th, and Taylor will be 6 on the 16th. We are having a big party to celebrate on Saturday. I was hoping the sunroom would be done and we could have our party there but we are a long way from that so we will be in the house.

Praying and praising God everyday............